FASHION WEEK 2010

Things have been on a down swing for me lately but the other day I got the most exciting news ever! I have been chosen to assist in this years New York Fashion Week 2010. The opportunity to be behind the scenes, network, and just be there is AMAZING. What makes it even more amazing is the fact that a really good friend of mine has also been chosen to be of assistance during Fashion Week. I was kinda bummed on not having a valentine but who cares?!? I will be with the love my life FASHION, in the one place that has always had my heart NEW YORK, with one of the people closes to my heart @TAHIRAHHAIRSTON. Seriously couldn't be more geeked then I am right now. Most importantly I have a great excuse to go shopping!! Anyways I'm debating on what to wear to my first day on the job. Any suggestions ?!?

Deja Vu

Deja Vu.....I feel like I am in High School again, Seriously. Aside from getting a great education and having a different experience, I was sooooooooo looking forward to getting away from the immaturity. I feel that I have always been just a bit more mature then those around me and I assumed that Howard would bring together the best and the brightest from all over the country and that I would be leaving immaturity in exchange for young adults who could agree to disagree and enter into what is known as civil discourse. Clearly I was wrong, DEAD WRONG. The carrying on, the name calling. the two-faceness, it'a never been my style and I have never dealt with it well when coming from other people.

This weekend has been no different. I am at a point where I've decided I need to begin stop caring so much about wanting everyone to like me and start cutting people and things out of my life that are not going to help me in progression towards ultimate success. (Bahhhahhaa evil scientist laugh) But no seriously. I am soooooo over people, And to think that I use to be such a people person. smhhh.

There should be some sort of maturity and character test before you are admitted into the "Black Harvard" as we like to continuously reference ourself. Though academically smart, I have noticed that many people here have #weak character and are emotionally unstable.

I guess I got my hopes up when expecting more or different from people who have the nerve to call themselves adults (sarcastic smirk) #ohwell

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I am sorry I have been neglecting you. Oh how I miss you dearly . . . One day soon I will return. #thatisall

New Year; Same Bull...

With the anticipation of a new year comes the excitement of letting go of "bad habits" and working towards better ones. Every year - Myself included, millions of people think that at the stroke of midnight everything will just change. Suddenly you'll be able to put yourself on a strict diet, suddenly you'll stop drinking or smoking, suddenly your gonna just stop caring about some guy from your past, but the truth is old habits die hard.

A new year does not equate to a fresh start. Nobody forgets what happened months prior because the year has changed. As much as I wish a new year meant new beggings the truth is it doesn't. For me that became evident last night.

I don't like to reference particular people or situations because thats not what this blog is about so I wont but I will say this, if nothing else this past year has taught me this: Be careful who you trust. I have come to realize that I have always been naive in thinking that everyone has my best interest at heart. This goes for both sexes. Be careful who you consider your friend vs. acquaintance. It is essential to know the difference. Most importantly, be careful who you trust with your emotions because when not managed correctly, they can be a DANGEROUS thing!! (More on that some other time). Just always remember not what you want, but what you deserve. It's easy to forget when your emotions are too caught up in one person or situation.

For me this New Year means more then empty resolutions and unattainable aspirations, it a chance for me to reevaluate who I am, what I will and will not stand for, what I want in life, and what it will take to get there. This New Year didn't quite begin as pleasantly as I had hoped for but I have promised myself to make a conscious effort to have it end as planned. Things change all the time but I will look back at this year and know that I gave my life the effort it deserves.

HAPPY 2010 TO EVERYONE . . . Live. Laugh. Love & By All Means Be Fabulous !

1st Semester. Freshman Year

As I lay here, clothes FINALLY packed and room clean I'm unsure of what to make of my first semester as a freshman in college. My first thought is that the whole semester was just a huge tweak! I partied more then I should of, got B's in classes I should have gotten A's, and of course fell for the wrong upperclassman guy. I mean I wouldn't have fulfilled the freshman "cliche" if I hadn't lol. Now I can beat myself up for all this (and trust me I have) but as I look back in retrospect it was all a learning experience that, I am essentially grateful for.

I have been in some pretty crazy situations, made some not so good decisions, and dealt with some pretty out there things this semester but most importantly I have learned ALOT. I have learned so much about myself, other people, and the world around me as a whole. I don't regret anything because with every L was a learned a lesson or gained experience that has changed who I am for the better. For this too I am grateful.

Don't get me wrong though, this semester hasn't been all bad. I have met some WONDERFUL people from all over the country. The friendships I have begun to build this first semester mean the world to me. I have had the opportunity to serve on student council as well as work for THE HILLTOP. The ONLY daily collegiate paper in the nation! I know it's early but it is safe to safe that I truly love my Hilltop! I have grown to have a better understanding of who I am, what I want in life, and what I need to get there.

As I lay here ready to depart for this world I have quickly grown accustom to, I leave with this: Every situation is what you make it, people will only treat you the way you allow them to, and most importantly just be yourself in everything you do (cliche I know). First semester at Howard University has been the most exciting, disappointing, wildest, confusing, emotionally tagging, amazing experience of my life and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I'm more prepared then ever for what college has to throw at me and I am excited to see what next semester brings my way!

Confessions of A Shopaholic Pt. 1

Ok, so yesterday I briefly touched on the saga of of a Shopaholic. Well i've been doing pretty well (or atleast I think I was) but today (for the last 2 hours) I went bananas. Usually I can pinpoint why. Sometimes it's major like a break - up or huge dispute with a friend. Sometimes it's as little like a C on a paper or the parental frustrating me. But tonight....idk.

It could be the anxiety of my last final, the anticipation of going home, but as I write I think it's coming to me. Usually when I shop obsessively it's for a negative reason but I feel my "addiction" (and I use that word loosely) taking a turn for the better because the truth is I feel good. Real good. Better then usual. You know that deep breath of freedom that fills your lungs when you think about someone who not to long ago meant the world to you (or not but felt that way at the time) but you can safely say you've moved on? Yeah it was one of those and that positive feeling gave me the urge to shop!

Now I shop when I feel good and bad and since there is usually no in between  with me, what does that mean for my Visa card statement.....OH NO LOL!

Just Do It !

With school, work, social life's, and everything in between many students including myself often forget the significance in taking time to do things to benefit themselves physically, emotionally, spiritually, and otherwise. Today I took a personal day to cater to these forgotten aspects of my being.

Many people laugh when I say this but for me shopping is truly therapeutic. Something about moving through racks of lifeless clothes hanging solo on hangers and placing them with just the right thing else where in the store for eventual purchase does something for my spirit. A natural high that only a fellow Shopaholic could understand.  Some people drink, others smoke, but Milan... well she shops. 

After my excursion to Chinatown I came home and change for a 5:00 yoga class. I use to workout routinely before I began college. It's amazing how a change in situation could change the basic things about person but I will save that saga for another time. In the beginning it was difficult for me to clear my mind to a place where I could center myself. Though, when I was able to bring myself to that place a transformation happened with my psyche. After clearing my head of the non-sense that usually occupies it I felt a feeling of freedom from life's problems. I literally felt lighter as a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, I even noticed it was easier for me to just breath.

With day to day activities and responsibilities many things are thrown to the waste side. In closing I urge you all to take the time to do the little things that make the biggest difference. For some that might mean waking just aliitle earlier to take a jog before class, for others it might mean taking 30 minutes out of your day to read your favorite fashion blogs, shoot for some it might mean rolling that blunt before you go to sleep (I don't judge) but whatever it is do it! Get on your Nike status and JUST DO IT !